what to do for my birthday?? is like in another 3weeks time and i totally have no idea. I never liked birthdays... i mean my own birthdays because they were never happy birthdays.. either my mum screws it up or other stuffs happen. probably is the expectation that u have on ur birthday becomes exceptionally high thus ur disappointment becomes even greater if it didnt turn out the way u wanted it to be.
I remembered once where I thought tt my family was celebrating for me therefore I left the actual date free for them... but ended up when i went my grandma house... they thought i was celebrating with my frens... because apparently my mum kip teling them "no nid celebrate...blah blah blah". I know why she always say that... she find it troublesome~ waste money... but she nv understands... is not the money... y mus she make it so difficult at the end for mi... when other ppls parents are so willing and happy to celebrate for their child.
mayb last yr wasnt tt bad... but still there r ppl hu disappoint u by not coming. than again... can u judge others by failing u on one occasion? *pOnDeRs* Therefore is a very complicated event for mi. I dont want to celebrate becos i dun wan to be disappointed. But again u wan to celebrate bcos is a special day.
This year... is a 21st birthday.. some ppl think is a big whoo ha because is a adult birthday! Once in a lifetime. but again... i have my reservations... should i expect anithing? or maybe what i wan is just a full family gathering? just my mum, my dad and mi able to sit on a table nicely and have dinner and a birthday cake... Argg... *eMoing*
ok...so is it chalet? or bbq? book a hotel room? or just go out for dinner? or mayb even just forget about it~ hmmmm... I totally have no idea. The thought of organising is kinda a chore...
Ok...so tml is my first day of sch. Not vv excited abt it... i dun like sch! LOL but of cos it keeps u occupied. I hate the travelling~ I hate the studying~
Quote of the day: The greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment.
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Lala
Age is secret
Living in a garden city
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好きな物
Mangas
Friends
Family
欲しい物
To lose 10kg
More mangas
More animes
More sleep
More outings
A trip to Japan
